We got to play my favoritest song in Reunion tonight, yay. "I Cannot Hide my Love" is such a joyful song. It makes you want to get up and dance around like an idiot. Baker did a good job speaking tonight too. It was about the difference between leisure and rest. I wonder how much time I actually spend resting...I give myself a lot of leisure time, however (read: procrastination and laziness). It made me think, it did. Stephen did well tonight, too. Even though Jones audibly gasped when that huge Scripture passage came up on the screen...hee hee hee.
I realized I had missed Callis this afternoon cause I hadn't seen him in a week. I mean, until a few months ago, I only used to see him at Reunion, and I didn't miss him then. It appears that I've become spoiled, and it irks me. I want saying goodbye to Callis to be as painless as possible, but it looks like it's going to be harder than I thought it would be. My brain is telling me, "You haven't known him long enough to be that sad when he leaves", but my heart is apparently not listening...
Crap. It's times like these that I am reminded why I am so iffy about getting attached to people in the first place...it's rather troublesome when they leave. And people do leave. Sometimes paths are only supposed to cross for a little while, and it's nobody's fault; it's just the way life is. There'll only be two Matts next year...was going to be one, but Cabbil's not going as far as he was originally going, so he'll still be around. Lou won't be here this time next year. Good Lord, people are dropping out of my life like flies... I don't like it very much, and that surprises me. This "being attached enough to people to miss them when they're gone" feeling is not one that I'm used to feeling very often. It's not that I regret caring about my friends, but it's painfully obvious to me now why I used to not even bother. Eh, never mind. I'll get over it and myself. I'm glad I'm a bleeding heart once again and that I don't have to lock my emotions away as an act of defense anymore. I forgot it can hurt a little a bit to feel sometimes, but the rewards far outweigh the drawbacks.
Tomorrow begins my finals. Sociology tomorrow, maybe Afro-American Studies Wednesday (hoping I exempt), Logic Friday, and Astronomy the following Tuesday. Prayers are greatly appreciated and begged for. (Pleeeze pleeeze pleeeeeeeze!!! I like the passeeeees!!!!) I'm looking forward to no more classes and going home. Not looking forward to cleaning out my dorm room (it's almost as bad as a guy's. almost) and saying goodbye to my friends. You have to take the bad with the good sometimes...
I miss God already. I was just at Reunion. It appears You've spoiled me as well, although that might not be such a bad thing, Father... I have the urge to read my Bible, even though it's not my quiet time...gasp! Do I dare to do such a thing...?
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